Light Inside

by J James - Pisces

the emptiness of my covers
the vacancy on my floor 
the absence of what used to be
the presence thats no more 
clothes strewn out all over the floor
writing by the light through a crack in the door
listening to silence who's louder than before
while mourning the one that i adore 
and furthermore how much more 
do i have to take of this pain 
and heartache that makes me go insane
and what makes you think i could refrain
from pitifully playing make believe 
with the memories that remain
i blame nobody but myself for the 
disappearance of the wealth
that i had in my heart which is
madly torn apart in too many pieces
for me to even start to put together 
this rather dizzying merri-go-round of emotion
the notion gets me naseous and the 
sadness is infectious to parts that affect us
in the most obscure ways
the days, weeks, months go by
like fireflies lighting the way as they go
do they know of their inevitable burnout
or do they seek out paths 
as long full page paragraphs 
that these fireflies tired eyes 
couldn't read even if they tried 
to hide from the sunlight 
that divides purpose and pride 
do souls go along for the ride
maybe fireflies guide them
with the light they provide 
company by the fireside 
who's hiding behind that
rustling in the bushes
as the souls shush us from talking
about those who aren't around or 
at least the one's not measured in pounds
bound by the branches and leaves
i'm decieved by flickering lights
and sights i wasn't supposed to see
where does that leave me
alone inside
with not a shred of light to spare me

Reason for writing:

    as silly as it sounds my dog died and sumone told me bluntly 
make some use outta it then ...so i did    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2000-02-07 02:24:45
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:47
Poem ID: 54675

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