Happy XXII

by J James - Pisces

She sat there
with her lilac smile
and with every descending breath
I anticipate 
the next slip from 
her subtle lips to 
seep out as quietly 
as she exists
amidst all my rage
and page after page
of spontaneous dissection
of myself documented by age
only she instills 
a calm in me
maims the beast
that feasts on my insecurity
while I wrote her name
a hundred times in
my notebook today
and like everyday 
and the night before
I poured my heart out
to every letter just the same
about lame attempts at
being green and everything else
she seemed to adore
and more and more
I rise to hit the floor
beating myself up for
what I'm not and
what I don't got
and how I'd like to be…
but unfortunately I'm only
30 flavors of what she's 
been longing to taste it seems…

Reason for writing:

    this grrrl thats got my heart pretty tangled right now...oh boy
i know sumhow posting this one is gonna be trouble lol    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2000-02-28 00:19:29
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:50
Poem ID: 54845

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