Stop this pain that lies deep within me. the pain i feel that no one else sees. the pain that slowly kills every minute of my ever being the pain that cries but is never really seen. I'm so confused of what this could be why cant i have just one victory? I'm screaming inside, not being heard the fact that i want to die is absurd I wish to be strong and find another outlet instead of slitting my arm but at that moment I'm scared as can be and even though I'm shaking, hurting myself is all i can see. After it's done i feel better for a second but then see what I've caused and realize I'm worse than I reckond. so I go back to feeling like a disgrace It's a visious cycle i cannot face. I want to fly away to a place where only happiness lay a place where there is only angels and fluffy clouds a place where it is never loud a place where the sun shines brightly and forever ahead be held tightly!
Reason for writing:
poetry is my outlet when i am depressed.
Birth sign: Pisces
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