She...

by J James - Pisces

what has she done to me
every other thought is of she
and she and me 
and me falling deeper and deeper
into this sea of emotion
did I mention
I haven't learned
how to swim without
my flippers yet
without them I feel like
I'm drowning
It's even worse when
I'm out of the pool
...I had thought about that
sitting alone on a wobbly stool
must've been broken at least 
twenty times before
but I think it's consoled
a hundred heavy-hearted souls 
before I decided to rest my 
troubled head at the far 
edge of the bar
I sat there only thinking
thoughts of her...
like the park where we
sat and laughed about
almost everything
and didnt crack a single joke
I'm still wondering what was funny
and I thought about
how much I think about her
and when I do
and more important
why I do
why is she my first thought
when I rise
and the last when 
I close my eyes
and why do I write about her
everytime I pick up my pen
maybe my notebook looks
too empty without her in it
it sends me to places in my head 
I never knew were there
this place has become heavy
and when I looked into my cup
at the far edge of the bar
I started to see a reflection
that was almost me but not...
she hasn't made me not myself
I think she's shown me 
the me I wanna be
...which is she
I think that's why
I drown myself with her most...

Reason for writing:

    i'm was wondering reading the last few lines in that one and wondered if that conveyed conceit in anyway. i dunno but yah again its about me being tangled.  so yah im not sure if im totally happy with this one yet.  so dont be surprised if you see it a bit different if you read it again lol anyway im ramblin now...hmm this may be my longest explanation/reason without really giving one ok i callin this a wrap lol..-------> J James    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2000-03-14 20:44:30
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:54
Poem ID: 55065

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