11:55

by berrynice - Capricorn

the bathroom towel sailed over the concrete beam
a simple noose, encircling my dreams
slipped my head through the careless loop
fits so snugly, like lil' red riding hood

Feels suffocated, breathing's difficult
my chest constricted, my lungs hurt
I'm seeing double, my vision blurred
Oh it will go away soon, I'm sure

Just close my eyes and let it be
One more minute, and I'll be free
I took a last glance, like I've always done before
11:55, says the clock on the grime-stained wall

I was awakened by a piercing scream
Who the hell is making a scene
Isn't that mum wailing, hysterically by the door
convulsing uncontrollably, on the cold hard floor

anguished sobs racked through her bulky frame
time after time, wave after wave
I wonder wat was it that caused so much pain
I wonder what made her cry this way

I moved slowly towards her, nearing the sink
It's kinda weird, don't you think
cos I can't see my reflection in the mirror
was I standing at the wrong angle?

I saw in her eyes a sorrow so deep
her crumpled body in an awkward heap 
What is wrong with you, please tell me!
Don't shut me out of your misery

She was staring right through me
Her eyes vacant, bloodshot teary
I turned my back, to see what she's has seen
Wasn't prepared for that gruesome scene

a pair of feet dangling off the ground
an ashen deathly color, maybe more profound
a bluish mass of bloated flesh
wrapped in baby blue pajamas 

The clock strikes 12:00, it's midnight already
snapped me back harshly, to a foreboding reality
In those lifeless eyes, did I finally realise
I have been dead since 11:55

Reason for writing:

    Watch the movie Girl Interrupted. 
The suicide scene left a deep impact on me..
and I was thinkin' about it all my way home.
Got home..started writing and here it is.    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2000-03-25 03:20:53
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:41:58
Poem ID: 55246

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