I look myself straight in the eyes - and tell lies - to the mirror I pretend to see - what cannot be - just to make thing clearer I'm living an act - as a matter of fact - but no one knows Faking my way - through the end of each day - this life I've chose I seek shelter within - for I cant live on the outside I seek purity again - so I can smile on the inside What can I do to make myself be true The mysteries so old I've lost all the clues When you've lost yourself where do you turn You've gotta hold on so your soul doesn't burn I dig inside my mind - and try to find - the answers I should know I pick at my brain - make myself strain - hoping thoughts will flow I close my eyes - as they cry - this pain I cannot bare Faking my way - through the end of each day - feeling no one cares I seek shelter with friends - for I hope they can help me I seek purity again - I hope someone will cleanse me What can I do to turn myself around How do I get there when inside myself I'm bound I know I'm lost - but - is anyone searching I wanna let go - I'm tired of this life I do try - by asking myself why - I let this happen As things intensify - my problems multiply - I never learn my lesson It's all in the inside - so I have nowhere to hide - can't run from myself Faking my way - through the end of each day - keeping 'me' on a shelf I seek shelter 'cuz I have none - to thy ownself be true I seek purity 'cuz mines gone - to myself I haven't been true What can I do to right where I went wrong How do I know where it is I belong Maybe I'm destined to be lost - to be alone Why should I fight what has always been know "The truth shall set you free" - I don't know if I can face the truth of me The more I look inside myself - the less I want to see How do I move on when I feel that I should end How can I smile knowing that I have no future Why should I be alive when I know I'll never live Why do I write these words instead of erasing myself Why am I here when I want to just disappear Why can't I just get up and walk away What keeps me waking up to face another day (I don't know)
Reason for writing:
I was depressed
Birth sign: Leo
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