As I look into your eyes, I work to think of something to say I feel like such a failure when my words don't move you Surely, if you loved me, just hearing my voice would bring a light into your eyes In my heart your silence speaks volumes I hear so many " I told you" and "you heard me'"s as I try for the "I love you" and "I'm proud of you"'s You gave me so much and were always there Shouldn't those memories be the easiest to find? Sadly, I realize the failure is mine The memories are of times I let you down, not the other way around as I thought at first How do I make them up to you now? Can wiping the dribble from your chin erase 40 years of selfishness? Of course I realize it can't But it's all life has allowed me the opportunity to do Oh God! How did it get to this? You were the strongest person I ever knew. Please feel my love My longing to talk to you and love you and apologize to you and................. "Mom? Did you just look at me? " No, I guess not. "Here, let me get that dribble on your chin."Birth sign: Gemini
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