Big Grrls Cry

by J James - Pisces

her backbone 
her bed frame 
crumbled that day 
a day you decided to give up on 
the foundation you’d been 
building so long under that bed frame 
you made seem so stabile to rest upon 
the songs you sang for years 
belonged to you both once 
now she cries over 
the rights to sing that verse  
without the perverse guilt that 
you stapled in her brain 
claimed insane for 
surrendering so much of herself to you 
and for what 
so you can step on her emotions instead 
left her for dead 
among wolves of tears 
that tore her from 
every emotional limb she had 
sad doesn’t cover it 
no words do justice 
to the tears she cried that night 
maybe that’s why I’m speechless living under this myth 
"big grrls don’t cry" 
why?! 
the strong have cried oceans of salty tears 
of fears and the merely unavoidable pain like you 
she's stronger than I could ever be 
to see that waterfall splash onto me 
was less than a wonder 
but a wake up call 
big grrls cry 
inch by inch by tear by fist in the wall beside 
all of that made her feel  
and to feel is reeling towards 
maturity’s steering wheel 
big grrls cry 
I wish I could cry like her 
but I wish she didn’t cry for you 
that’s why you haven’t shed one yet

Reason for writing:

    this grrl that im pretty tangled over has this ex-best friend that put her thru so much for nuthin. an eight year friendship down the drain for petty bullshit. and when i saw her cry for her the way she did the other night it broke my heart cuz it hurt so badd to see sumone i care so much for cry over idiot stuff. not to say there was no reason to but some people in the world dont deserve to shed as many tears as they do and this grrl is just onna them. so yah this just poured outta me in five minutes a half an hour before class and yah it was very spur of the moment but its very reall in the sense i feel every word no matter how much it sucks lol.    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2000-03-31 22:10:43
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:00
Poem ID: 55344

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