this desperate smile

by broke - Virgo

this desperate smile 
coldly awakening fury and fears, dead again
alone
and here I lie bloodless and burned
a deviled wind kicked my face home
shake my hands 'til the morning lands
here
place a blue poem under my wing in case
i wake up without me
last night the moon called me names
while dim strangers stole my face, over..............
has hell been kind to you my desperate friend
hello, it's just me an' my pale blue dream, again
racing time and bending fences
this moon shall ride my shoulder till the end
forever unseen
a slow drowning gratitude hard to get to know
far away answers through candid whispers
call my attention to the angry rain
nature is truly sorry, she must be
together against time we wait alone
an aging madness still breaks my heart
wild things roam inside my dark and splattered mind
though I see, somewhere I wished I were blind
and somedays I wish I were kind 
she seems glad to see me
a risk unknown to me, myself and i
tonite I shall rise once again
just to bear witness, just for one moment of wretched silence
in this cold and unjust world
wherever there's a cave
when there's nothing left.......
to spin around you, to dim your love
to quench the safest fears, to shadow the impotent will......
that strangeness conquers the afterthoughts, obvious to one
delayed seriously, labours neglected this day
sunrise sorrow
tedious and dusting shelves lean arched beside my aching brain
i am disheveled again this day, because I am
this desperate smile costs this much.
this baby sprawled unconscious, blackens the real
the children may dance on my back
the only cure of this strange city
my smiles are chiseled hard and my motives weak
little questions and the anxious pains, 
waiting to understand it all......
the children may dance on my back again, 
she's awake
i am still sleeping 
she's bleeding
my wounds have dried
my child, let me hold you in the palms of my warm hands,
I will let you down easy
I love you too
.....at risk.....how I wish to scream.....
i will send you a picture and then you will
understand
abide in the tainted love or madness
today will be a day for eloquent search
a candle of curiosity, I lite for me and you
a pride to exist, not just a reason to live
don't remember to forget
wearing my fury on my sad skin
my brain incurs a chronic nausea
when I mingle with the mad and ignorant
only Christ will know the remedy I seek
a puppydog and a passion princess; 
I need your love, I need your love.......
rhymes are out of time
skool no longer the rule.

by broke...

Reason for writing:

    desperation vs. hope and the in betweens...    

Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2000-04-09 12:14:57
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:10
Poem ID: 55410

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