Fortune's Fool

by Katherine - Aquarius

24 hours of darkness,
It seems like the daylight has left me here to sleep.
I'm so sick of myself
sometimes I'm just crawling to jump out of this skin.
I've got anger tied to my finger
like I'm supposed to remember to be irritated all the time,
but it comes as naturally
as the rain inside my head.
Sick of life
and everthing it does to get attention,
sometimes I just need a break,
but 10 minutes is not enough.
I'm

lost

my glow has dimmed.
I can hardly see a glimmer of the path I was on,
somehow I was thrown off,
I think it was here-
in my heart,
everything that ment something to me
all of a sudden seemed silly and worthless.
I'm falling,
and there's no stopping me now.
The higher I climb
the harder I fall,
and I have been flying at great heights
these past months,
but every star burns out,
and every speck of dirt is swept away,
so I sit here grieving for the things
I had hope for,
crying about being lost,
when all I can see is one world of a loss.
A world of mistakes,
with hatred and cruelty,
and all I can think of is finding love
in a world like this.
At times like these I feel so pathetic,
so blind and
helpless,
all I'm able to feel is pain.
And at great depths these feelings seem to reach,
even into untangible memories
and thoughts.
I can't help but feel like I'm supposed
to give up.
One way or another I always do.
But either the stars have planned different,
or maybe by accident,
I always find myself again and go higher than
the last time,
so I guess I have to wait just one more day.
Just incase I stumble upon a path that leads somewhere.

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2000-04-21 17:34:07
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:05
Poem ID: 55650

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