I hate myself for drinking I hate myself for being insecure I hate myself for taking you for granted I hate myself for thinking I was pure. I hate myself for cheating on you I hate myself for hurting you I hate myself for breaking your heart I hate myself for tearing us apart. I hate myself for leading you to believe I was the one I hate myself for speaking about what was in my heart I hate myself for losing you I hate myself for letting you think I was your dream from the very start. I hate myself for being a phony I hate myself so much I can't sleep I hate myself for this mistake I hate myself on my birthday. I hate myself so much I've lost my self-respect I hate myself so much I'll never forgive myself for doing this to you I hate myself so much I wanna die I hate myself for losing all my pride. I hate myself so much I can't stop thinking about what I've done I hate myself for losing something so sacred I hate myself for losing it to someone who means nothing I hate myself for not sharing it with you. I hate myself so much that I cry I hate myself so much my heart bleeds I hate myself for not being able to let this go I hate myself for going against everything I believe in. I hate myself for thinking I was different from every other guy I hate myself for being just like every other guy I hate myself for thinking I was special I'll hate myself till the day I die. Just to learn my lesson that I drink to much and my insecurity runs my life I had to not only lose someone so special I have to live with the fact that I hurt them and made them cry. The only respect I have is that I told you the truth at least I cared enough to tell you I cheated on you. You deserve better than this you deserve your dream guy we both thought I was the one but I'm an asshole just like everyone else.
Reason for writing:
I wrote this poem because I cheated on my girlfriend. I got drunk,
jumped to conclusions because of my insecurity.
I lost the one girl I truly loved and my pride and self-respect all in one night.
I went against everything I thought made me special and different fom every other guy.
In order for me to learn a lesson, not only do I hate myself, but I lost the sweetest
girl in the world. But the pain that I have to learn to live with,
is that I hurt someone that was an angel. That is something I will never forgive myself for,
or ever forget.
Birth sign: Aries
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