My Lovers Gone

by chris - Aries

My lovers gone
I inflicted so much harm
oh how her eyes used to glow
beneath them
was so much charm.

I'm restless
see a young girl in the distance
alone in her room
shades pulled down
crying
listening to the radio play
she thinks of me
how I shattered her heart
her world
two weeks to the day.

My lovers gone
I always start off strong
but I always lose
nothings quite the same now
I tell myself it's not so bad
you just my dream girl
the best I ever had.

Remembering my girl
leaves me so down and lonely
I know in time
that you were always right
your always right.

I sit and wonder
was it love
were you the one
I try to remember
some more familar feelings
it seems so long ago
when you turned to me
whispering silently
with those eyes
sparkling
I love you so much
more than you'll ever realize.

My lovers gone
hearts
and love
sometimes fade away
there no simple way to let you go
but memories never ever
leave your heart
they never go away.

I just can't go on alone
I don't want to go alone
my self hatred burns me
but I'm gonna give you back to the angels
flying in the sky
because I was nothing but
the devil in disguise.

It may take some time
to patch me up inside
I just don't want you to be down
don't want you to cry
don't want you to frown.

I go on
angels call
but your not here
you grow lonely
cold
I try to go on
but my angels not here.

My lovers gone
is it for you
or myself that I cry
I lost someone who came to me
theres no way out of here
I never once believed 
I'd push you away
will there ever be an answer
to the endless tears I cry.

How long will I slide
deep into the oceans
of tears I made you cry
I'd give anything to see you
just one last time.

My sleep leaves me behind
theres still no place I'd rather be
then there in your arms
you sleeping by my side.

My lovers gone
I hope you find someone new
and sweet
but I still want you back
I want to say I'm sorry
I never meant to hurt you.

Neither of us will be happy
until we find that special place
where we belong
but I'll never be happier
since I always thought that place 
was in your arms.

I'm surrounded by things I cannot change
never be able to turn away
I'm drowning in the rain
the pain
I put in your heart
I have nothing but the past 
to place my better days.

I just want someone to know me
someone to love me
because I feel no love for myself
what have I done.

I know someday all your dreams will come true
your gonna be so wonderful
such a special girl
a beautiful life
in someone else's arms
but why can't it be mine
oh why can't it be mine.

All those words that hurt you
more than you will ever show
tore me up inside
I've lost you
will I ever be able to let you go.

Reason for writing:

    Its about the feelings I'm going through right now knowing I lost 
my girlfriend because I cheated on her.
    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-05-04 16:21:34
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:10
Poem ID: 55869

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