A Little Slam Liturgy

by barnswallow - Capricorn

What grand conceits engage us now this morning
in our Knowledge!
	The gardener tools the soil dumbly
	an early light breathes over the landscape of your thigh,
I wake up, undead, again
simply myself
without shoes.

And so we must imagine ourselves,
against blood's dictation
	rivers coursing through tunnels
toward incredible distractions.

Each day will hold its wonder
visited some say be death and dread,
	Yes, death and dread provide the cellar's warmth
and constrict dimple-wide folly
to its inevitable construction:
	Daughters
	its children's games
	ceilings
	a cat pawing the rug
	and closets knowing war and the whiteness of winter.
Many things will be lost in the storm
storm and indescribable food.

And so, too let silence cease 
its waiting banishment...
breath and the body
--the dream coiled essences--
regain season's horizonless actuality
unto each dying fire;
Wastes untouched by the thumb
springing before a thing
unknowable.

We, the hobbled darlings, in a stumble
wild beyond forests which reach out to hold us
the jackal, the gnawed root
	We have tended the garden's mysteries with machines
	the mechanism, the calculus certainty
	the faces turned in habitual recognition
until, like fools, we possessed even the unknown.
These are the stones we throw into the face of oceans.

Is it not the heart whose hands reach out
to collect the faces of agony
in this place not to be placed out of?

I look up,
the broad waste and wonder of it
draws my eye and thoughts and being out
on to the sea and sun setting slowly,
in that domain where pity, regret, remorse and anger
are exchanged like aces 
in that game where each gains his hand
by asking for cards from the other
sometimes going to the deck or going out
before the rest--
a game with no winners
only a sad panic
like blind alarm clocks going off each second
in search of each other.

I have wept
I have courted fear as food
I have bled
I have run with wounds.
Carved my father's moon-shaped  scar 
freshly on my thumb
to be like one other in the world
or just to see the red on a turning hand
fall in droplets on the grass...

Spiders. Spiders.
The cries of women in saxophone
Shadows, mirrors I am
lost and a lover of airports at midnight
Oblong sunsets collide with rush hour
The victim was patient during the necessary inquiries.

Spiders. Spiders.
the whine in the jet stream
Shadows, mirrors, I am
laughter falling from a distance down.

What grand conceits?
A people without a We,
suffering the grand stroke of the Impossible.
We enter the City in the grip of hysterical folly
by invitation only
These buildings: incredible! mache!
and me?
at the stranger's arm weeping for the Prophet's vulnerability.

Deaths of men,
that pain remits, recalls deaths
arcs of unseen gulls
the ending of long months
all that put away
death scars
and the waters at the edges only
frozen.

Having crossed this river often
I expect to lose and do
studying the distance
with odd and serving eye.
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2000-05-17 00:09:31
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:10
Poem ID: 56087

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