Mirror

by Parvati - Gemini

Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and start to cry
Because I’ll see how ugly I am
And all the ugly people say it’s whats inside that counts
But I looked inside me and it’s a bunch of waste - my heart is purely dejection
And the blood running through my heart is black, like my life, in a way...
And my mind is full of wasted dreams
And I constantly have to think of what I’m imagining and what is real
Because it’s hard to diffrentiate between them nowadays
Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and cry
Because I see you instead of me..
You’re so much a part of me you’ll come out
You’re the reason why I’m ugly....but you’re not
I’m just laying the blame on you because I’m sick of blaming myself
And blame never gets anyone anywhere anyway so should I stop?
Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and  start to cry
Not because I’m unhappy...
Only because the person who’s looking back at me is crying
And I don’t think I even know that person very well
The only time I ever meet that person is when I look in the mirror
And from what I see I don’t like that person at all
Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and start to cry
But I still look in the mirror
For an insanely long period of time
Fixing every little detail for you
And it’s not vanity...because I don’t want to look good for myself
I only want to look good for you
But who can I tell all this to?
Only you...
And you’re not there for me anymore
And your shoulder never gets stained with my tears anymore
And nothing ever happens anymore
So maybe I shouldn’t look in the mirror for a while

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this poem because I loved this guy, and at the time I was realizing how we were drifting apart. When I wrote this, I was in tears, because I was writing it in front of my mirror, and I decided to incorporate my confused reflection into my lost world of love...    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2000-05-20 15:37:20
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:15
Poem ID: 56136

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