Curiousity

by Desiree - Virgo

I won't let this 
meaningless controversy
rule and dictate
my present or future life,
It's simply pointless.
I am so incredibly happy
and overwhelmed with joy
that no matter what you say 
can effect me, by any means,
why should I let it?
You want to be a part 
of not only his life
but mine as well?
My advice to you, 
on a peaceful level,
is to do what you feel
the need to do,
because like I said prior
you can't effect me,
So if you're there
than so be it,
if you're not
than there is no great loss here,
I respect how your so interested though,
but why all of a sudden?
Why not back then?
through out my entire pregnancy?
You said you had reasons
for avoiding me 
for the last four months,
(I thought it was 
the other way around)
but anyway, I never heard
your reasonings behind it,
Not that I really care
but some things make me curious,
Well I guess some questions
are meant to be unanswered, 
and maybe it's better 
if I never search 
for that minor purpose.
I'd rather know why
you never took the time
to feel your own son kick,
but that's besides the point,
I went to the salon today
and I saw a little boy,
he was sitting in a chair 
with his dad holding his hand,
he couldn't have been 
more than two or three,
he was trying to be real still
asking daddy if he was doing good,
that little boy brought a smile
upon my face, 
and my mind went astray,
I thought about how someday soon
I'll be in that position,
and that's okay,
that's great infact,
even if you're not there
and I have to play
"the daddy role too"

Reason for writing:

    Not really a poem, just babbling thoughts. Sorry if 
you found this some what dull. This is just the stage of
my life at this point in time, and I was just releasing it.    

Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2000-05-26 23:18:25
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:17
Poem ID: 56250

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