Confessions from Bus J-9 (II)

by F.I. - Cancer

Slowly traveling down that bumpy road.
Never breaching upon the moral code.
They sat silently.
Talked uncompliently.
Arguments over a materialistic thing.
Voices yelling; not knowing what to bring.
They sit sometimes silent on the ride.
I always wondered what was within, what they hide.

Sometimes my breath is that of distress.
Trying to build up a fortress.
They don't know
that I am like them yet will not show.
Their mental capacities are different, yet new,
never having the chance like I did, once grew.
The vinyl seats had this smell,
and the bus driver never had a desire to yell.
Perhaps it was because he had understanded
that these children were a gift that never landed.

They did not know.  He did not know.  I did not know.

We were all on a ride together, however short.
Falling, stalling, prosecutors in court.
I didn't know exactly how to connect.
Each time I stepped on I didn't know what to expect.
Perhaps we all taste this feeling of distress.
Taking the clothes of our heart off, just to re-dress.
Scolding the simplicity of pain.
Becoming of society, the gain.

I don't know exactly what I am trying to say.
It just wasn't normal, yet I found time to play.
I choose to look at this situation impartial,
changing the channel as when arrives a commercial.
Perhaps I was wrong in all of this,
Losing a chance that I will always miss.
Maybe I could have had an effect,
It's just that I never knew what to expect.

So I rode on and on.
Now it's all gone.
No more to listen,
yet I will always feel their pain glisten.

The kids on bus J-9,
never really knew what the world thought of time.

Reason for writing:

    Finding things that i should have tried to fix in an interdependent type of way.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-06-14 01:56:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:23
Poem ID: 56576

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