On second thought

by Mama Effie - Cancer

Someone once told me
Hope will never 
Leave your side
Someone said
"Don't give it up,
Cause once you do
You don't have anything"
Well hope can kill you
Or set you free.
All in one night 
I have seen
Just how both feel
They made me believe
I would get the one thing
I ever asked for
But then as we
Went to a place 
Where people watched,
My every move
She told me
On second thought, No.
No, you don't get to see him
No, I won't let you
No, I ain't giving them
Any reason to hurry on
Your birthday.
You will do as I say
Not even tell them
About the baseball game on
Your birthday
But what I will do
Is buy you anything
You could want
But I won't let you go
Up to the river school
And see him that day
 The tears filled my eyes
But I held them in
Cause i know
She doesn't want me to
"Make a scene"
So I sit there
Not thinking of the promise
Of getting my one wish
I wait til I get home
To cry out,
How could you let them
Get all your hopes up.
You said you wouldn't
Believe them,
But look at you now
Crying under a bush
Looking at the road
To see if he goes by
Someone told me
Hope floats
Well it better
Cause my tears are flowing
Don't let it go,
Cause then you'll have nothing
Don't worry 
I can't let hope go.
I have never done it before
I'm not about to start now
Just why,
Did she have to have
A second though.

Reason for writing:

    Well I have to go to down to my Gramma's the week of my birthday and while I am happy to see them, James has a game on my birthday. My mom had said we could make it, but then last night she had a second thought. Why did she have to have a second thought.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-06-29 14:23:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:26
Poem ID: 56721

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