sorrow

by antwan fields - Aries

its a cold wind 
that blows down the street 
but it might as well have been arctic
as i walk on 

everyone's leaving me 
not one is staying 
i walk down the street
sad, heavy with sorrow

my friends are heading off
for their respective colleges
my girlfriend broke it off 
when i told her we weren't going to the same place

if i could turn back time 
to when we played and laughed as kids
at fourteen we kissed
at seventeen we made love 

my friends are gone 
they all left for warmer weather
and i walk through time and time again
alone

a boy playing basketball 
waves to me 
i don't wave back

my teachers don't even talk to me when i see them
they all shake their heads that such a smart kid turned out to be 
such a failure

i cry as i walk 
and i don't know it 
until i feel the wetness flowing
down my cheeks 

five o'clock shadow on my face
defeat in my eyes 
its beaten me 
like everyone else

then i turn and go home 
but i don't have one 
and i try to go to work 
and don't have a job

and i look around and fall to my knees
and begin to sob in earnest
i cry and cry
and don't stop...

its too late, a voice whispers in my ear 
and somehow, i have turned from a twenty-one year old boy
into a seventy-seven year old man
and im crying...

and i wake up 
shake my head to clear it 
look around and smile 
im not hopeless

i won, i whisper
i won my battle with failure
there will be 
no sorrow here
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-07-12 12:00:53
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:29
Poem ID: 56859

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