i didn't come this far(to give up now)

by antwan fields - Aries

i'm standing outside your window 
waiting for you to look out 
on the other side 
my parents are having a cookout
i tried to talk to you a lot 
but i always gave up
i wanted to elope 
for that i will save up
they stare at me 
they can't believe 
that i would talk to you 
so they set out to deceive 
me
and it was all a setup 
that had me telling everyone to get up
get away from me 
i shout at them 
i don't want you
let me be
i cant wait 
till i finally get a chance
to show everyone 
that i can't dance
i didn't come this far to give up now
im creeping
and sleeping 
and heeping 
and jeeping
like a shadow
of something that lived millions of years ago
feel me crash 
and the blood flow
the pain of rejection 
i try not to feel 
apparantly you've given your 
approval seal
so i wait here
for you 
silently calling your name 
my friends told me 
she's not interested in you or me 
can't you just leave it be
but no
im hardheaded to a fault
so in case someone sees me im off
like willie gault
finally she gets out of bed 
to see who's calling 
is that you, antwan??
no, it's linus pauling
of course its me 
standing here
she threw a shoe
and hit my ear
get away, go home 
go to hell
before you end in a jail cell
finally i knew 
it was all for nothing 
that there was someone else 
that she was sucking 
so i flipped her the bird
but inside i hurt like hell
then i tripped over a branch running away
and
   i
     fell
i had come too far
now i had to give up
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-07-17 15:43:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:30
Poem ID: 56919

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