where's my daddy?

by darbyann - Aquarius

(three months along)
It was a big mistake
we both knew it was
but you have to step up
and take it like a man

should we tell anyone?
and wonder what other say?
maybe we should of thought about that
before we chose this way

I am getting bigger
and I am starting to show
I am sure others know we chose
something other than "NO"

(eight and half months along)
I have a couple of weeks left
and then I have the big day
the day I will bring our little one
into the world this way

I am getting pretty scared 
and I hope I make it though
please come back and help
to do the best I can possibly do

(born)
he arrived this afternoon
so tiny and petite
weighing 8.5 lbs with small hands and feet

I hope I can raise him good
giving him everything I possible can
but there is one thing I know I cant
that is his biological dad

(seven months old)
who am I to say
that his daddy he will never see
because he wasnt man enough 
to take his own child 
under his wing

now dont set this letter down 
and think nothing of it
because before you know it
he will be grown 
and you will reget it

(one years old)
he said your name last week 
I got up from bed with tears falling down my cheek
what I had heard in the middle of that night
was the word "daddy" with a lot of fright

that is when i thought of writing this letter
before he ask me "where is my daddy to make it all better?"

you chose to get me pregnant
such a brave thing to do
at the age seventeen what did you think i would do?
you know i couldnt go though with an abortion
such an awful thing to say 
to kill your little sunshine
and them have to pay

soI guess I will let you go 
leaving you this to think about 
do you want to regret not being there
and being asked.."why didnt you care?"

Reason for writing:

    whwn my son said daddy for the first time is when i realize that he is missing out on the most wonderful thing in the world.    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2000-07-18 03:23:49
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:30
Poem ID: 56921

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