If knew you I wouldn't have said those cruel words that I thought I meant If you hadn't touched me I would have given love a chance I've never walked away from you From some distant place I felt a touch that was right from you We've never hugged from spur of the moment We've never even kissed Seventeen years now And we still can't admit that we know each other I've held a strong hate for you I never liked to go to you To cry with you We have walked away from every chance that has been given We turn our heads Feeling nothing At our first moment You loved me You would always see if I was o.k. And something changed You anger was pointed always in my direction It didn't matter the cause You hit me Threw me to the ground and kicked me until I couldn't walk I never knew why And now I do You began you life as a beautiful, lovable child The world distorted you because you were different No one would give you a chance Not even your father I never knew that part of the story...but now I do I'm your little sister The one with the big smile The one who use to play football with you Who would listen to every word you said and never have a doubt I've always known that there was something hidden deep inside the chambers of my soul A place that I would keep dark And I know what it is It's something that I've never expressed to you Never put into words of beauty But into hatred And even though we can't talk anymore I figure that this one thing is too different to ignore You're my older brother I've looked up to you since the first opening of my eyes Before you leave Before you travel your destiny I have to tell you that I love you I've never held it against you for hurting me Only built an angry love I vow to always protect you No matter what the world says about you I'll never turn my head away
Reason for writing:
My brother and I went through a rough time in our lives. He started out as a happy little boy. Things changed on him because he had learning disablities and my Dad was a drug addict and an alchoholic. The world at that time didn't except people like my brother. But I do. And I regret every time I critisized his stugglness to move forward. I'll never forgive myself.
Birth sign: Leo
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