WORDS If it were only a matter of words, I could overlook a lot – I could forgive you. Words are cheap and so carelessly used these days that one can’t really be held accountable for them. But the words preceded deeds and the deeds implied thoughts and the thoughts implied feelings, or lack of feelings, that are crucial to a relationship. It is your conduct that I can not forget. The consequences of your actions are suffered by me everyday. The hollow, empty feeling that I get when I am reminded of what you have done will probably never leave me. The trust that was shattered can never be reestablished – and without that, we have nothing. Yes, I know that you are sorry and that you will never act that way again, because you tell me that you are and you tell me that you won’t. But these are only words. The same type of futile words that you used to push me away are now your only tool towards getting me to come back. And it is not a strong enough or valuable enough device. I know that someday you will flourish and find someone who can inspire you to keep your promises – but it wasn’t me, and somewhere inside you must know this. You went out a door that has no entrance back in when you betrayed me, so please stop looking for the key. The door is locked and bolted and the only way to get back in is to knock the whole house down and this I will not allow you to do. I will protect myself from further harm and keep my dwelling secure. You see, this is the place where my heart lives, and it’s worth is immeasurable and this is why I must defend it at all costs. So keep your meaningless words, for they are worthless to me. Take your words and examine them to try to make them match your feelings. When you have achieved this, your actions and deeds will react accordingly and it is only then that you can begin to search for a new home with any hope of success.
Reason for writing:
I wrote this for my ex-boyfriend.
Birth sign: Leo
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