This Internal Pain

by chris - Aries

Will you come over
not today
you've got plans
I just want you to know me
I'm crying out loud
to anyone who knows this pain
another day goes by
and I don't see you again.

Is this how
it's gonna be
I thought you were bent
but I'm just scared that I'm falling apart
just when you started
to put me back together again.

There's no where to run
I'll take it anyway
what can I do
just string me along
like I don't belong
like I don't mind
I'll tell you now
how I feel inside
this pain
is for you 
and from you.

He's not gone
and neither are you 
I'm still holding on
what more can I do
this internal pain
has enveloped me
and it's mine
all alone.

Words came so easy for me
your lies it seems
came way to easy for you
and I take it anyways
I want you so much
what can I do.

I'm friends with them
just like you
but you don't let them go
you still hold on to them
even though they hurt you.

I can't seem to reach you
just push me away
I'm on the outside once again
fighting to be let in.

I think about it nightly
I wonder why I'm slipping 
farther away from you
down that rainbow
that doesn't lead to you.

Tomorrow you might say
we're just friends
so you say
is that what we've become
now that your done with me.

I was just a game you played
finally putting me away
I was just a pawn to you
I feel like a mistake
in these sick games girls play.

Maybe I'm paranoid
and you just want your space
can't give me a relationship
so you can't kiss me anymore
you just let me drift away.

Seems like slow motion
please don't let me go
I feel like I'm dieing
way to young
my heart can't take another break
me giving it my all
and another girl that does nothing in return
all she does is take.

Reason for writing:

    The games girls play    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-08-05 20:34:20
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:34
Poem ID: 57174

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