Chimera

by E. L. Wright - Capricorn

“You never listen to me.”

Perhaps.

A multitude of sighs.
 I can’t exhale enough – 
What appears as casual disregard
Is in fact utter despair.
Looking at the floor
I feel like a child scolded,
Small again,
Forced contrition your only appeasement.

“You have such double standards!”

Possibly. 

Maybe I don’t want to be controlled. 
Maybe I need the VELOCITY
Maybe I just want to scream and cry and
Tear my hair out and laugh.
Hysteria
Rage
Passion
Torment
I want it all -
Honey, give me whiplash.

“I don’t understand you.”

Really…?

And then I cry.
Tears are hot and heavy, and so EASY to come by.
Each one a symbol of my hope
Drying up 
Washing away any optimism
A reminder that we no longer have a dream.
Was all we had just a chimera? 
A fanciful pointless entity – 
No substance
Transparent
HOLLOW.

Oh baby, 
I’m just so tired.

Reason for writing:

    I wanted to try something a little different, 'the things that people think when they are arguing with their partner but don't say' was my basic inspiration. Seeing as I had a lot of experience in that area *s* I thought I'd try and get out some frustration. Comments and constructive criticism VERY welcome!    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2000-08-07 15:35:36
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:35
Poem ID: 57190

You need to log in to edit this poem if it is yours.

View more poems by E. L. Wright.