face down

by heather - Taurus

before i can submerge 
myself in you,
there is some emptying 
of spirit that must
take place.  i have been
displaced, and am altogether
more jaded and hardened than
before.  nevertheless, (somehow),
i dont want to waste energy
on anger, resentment, 
bitterness, or even a love
that has lost its bounds.

but no, this is not true.
i cannot lie to myself or a soul
that is threaded 
into mine.  you are what happens
under all the tension, all the fear:
the steady, firm, constant
in the wavering wreckage 
of my world.  you
are the undertow of blessed
Things That Never Change,
because your tide flows in only
one direction: towards 
the cracked-and-glued,
cavernous and cold,
battle-weary remnants 
of my heart.

Reason for writing:

    dedicated to the two most profound and devastating loves in my life.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2000-08-14 13:07:30
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:36
Poem ID: 57256

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