EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED

by Nicola Jayne - Taurus

A head full of memories good ones and bad
Can someone tell me,
Where is the mum I used to have?
She moved away, then close to home
More than once or twice
It's as though she takes a gamble
And depends on the numbers of a dice.
Then she moved close to me
It took me a while to get involved
I started to feel trust again
My problems began to solve.
I was just getting well again
Starting to laugh and smile
Something I didn't do for a long,long while.
Again she may be moving
It's set off a trigger inside of me
Why can't she just leave my feelings be.
Slowly feeling depressed again
Something I have no control
I just want to curl up and hide back in a hole.
Many people say "don't let her get to you"
But when you have the scar
Oh it's so hard to do.

Reason for writing:

    This poem is self-explanitory it was written when when my mum was going to move away again, this stirred up a lot of emotion.  My mum left the family home when I was 14,not realising at the time but the day she left she also walked away with the bond we once had.  A bond I know I can never ever replace.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2000-08-28 17:49:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:39
Poem ID: 57405

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