The Silent Fall (as told in 3-D Technicolor)

by Todd Hancock - Cancer

The Silent Fall (as told in 3-D Technicolor)



Mad horse, with your nostrils flaring red crimson and
Spittle flecking bared teeth grin in anticipation
For the kill
You give chase in a blur of gnawing trees and bloodless roots
Sand surrounding a pool of brackish water
Where I once dug as a child
Digging a four foot hole, trying to find china and
The violet marmalade court of the esteemed Prestor John
My hands bloody, eyes wide in anxious excitement that spread from hot face
To throbbing dream of heterosexuality
Mother in the door wafting cigarette smoke
Pissed off as hell, complaining about her libertarian rosebuds now
Trampled on by infantile socialist airs
This was my dream the dream of a thousand adventures
In color I saw the pixels shift and shift and melt into the shaggy carpet
Vacuum to no avail it coalesces and forms into shapes shifting and shifting
I stare and scream and cry from fear of the new cinema
Oh you bastion of equestrian tyranny come to me now
And bite and gnaw and chew this tasteless morsel of fading desire
I'll hold and I'll love and then I'll fall
Just keep the movie camera on to capture all the fun and excitement
Careful not to aim to low so as not to offend the censors
Aim instead at exploding head and brain sliding down bare white senate walls
Orgies of blood and blade embedded in diseased flesh walking
And talking and making the cancer more than abstract concept
They make policy
The new god I saw him outside a texas stripclub
He was smoking a havana cigar and playing dice
Come on, he said, two for four and six for eight and in between we reciprocate
But I don't trust murdering cowards and I trudged past to see the skin show
Oh you, who hide behind the glass and black coats
Who watch me with clipboards and facts and figures 
Always writing and analyzing and studying my form
On your meaty couches
I see all my generation laid out in still neat rows in a closed chamber of plastic and wire
Static and unchanging they smile with dollar bills in their eyes
Cough out the demons and massage cold lips blue with missed temptation
They sleep is what I'm told but I can't believe
It can't be voluntary
We wailed and screamed against that monolith of bloody self interest
No, we are not part of the machine
We can't be
But I don't trust trailer cowards and so I trudged past and took my place in row seven
Near aisle F right next to a dreaming american pure bred with night blue suit and a golden tiepin
He reminds me of my stalinist friend in grade school
Who used to push me and drag me through ant beds
I smile as I slice his air supply
And before I close my eyes to that nothing
I notice a girl, very familiar, very fucking familiar, staring at me with a strange eye gleam
Of crimson fire and teeth exposed in primitive snarl

Reason for writing:

    The dreams of youth will fade to be replaced by the torture of reality.  One grows older and finds that the ideals they once had no longer apply.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-09-05 20:08:02
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:11
Poem ID: 57482

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