i called your name

by Antwan Fields - Aries

i gave up on ever getting you back 
and i ran into the woods
pulled it over your picture
then put on my hood
and i ran for my sanity
and overall, my life
i felt the penetration
of my heart with a knife
and as i did i called your name
running with tears flying 
and it seemed a shame that a man like me 
was ever crying
knowing you were never coming home again 
ripped me to shreds
im never going to anymore beds
i can still see your smile as i fly by my friends
hood coming off in the wind
and i cry and the sobs rip into me
pushed the button, hit end
and the sobs ripped through me till i could not take it
never coming home again i said
like a mantra repeat like a mantra
running through my head
and i called your name till it fused with all i had ever known
wild oats have been sown
i will die knowing i could have saved you
and knowing i could have did more
but, no, i acted like a hog
more accurately, a boar
once again i feel
my feet flying
like coby dick of papa roach
im running and im crying
and whats worse when i saw you leave 
i should have called your name
but i didn't and because of me
life will never be the same 
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-09-21 14:47:40
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:44
Poem ID: 57643

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