i thought things would be better

by airbag - Aquarius

i dont get it
i dont connect with these people
i feel like someone misplaced me
and now the consequences are roaring in my ears

i cant stop it
i dont know what to do
there is no one here to talk to
and i cant tell the difference between
what would be good and what would be bad

i thought things would be better
if i tried this out for you
i thought i could handle it ok
but everything is going to hell

bad thoughts are coming back
like they were years ago
things i dont want
things i thought id never get again

i dont feel right here
there is no protection for me
and there is no security

i am not like them
i think in a way that they wouldnt understand
im sick of hiding so i wont be laughed at

what am i supposed to learn from this
i thought i went through this already

so i guess i am a coward
i guess im giving up

i thought things would be better.

Reason for writing:

    I moved across the country this year and I'm doing my senior year of highschool here. Things aren't going that good, I dont know if I should go back home or homeschool or what. Let me know what you think if you're interested in giving any advice.    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2000-09-22 23:45:02
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:44
Poem ID: 57665

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