Sometimes I want to run away From all this hell and all this pain Sometimes I wish I could say good-bye To the things that make me go insane I fucking want to die And I have no idea why I dream of self mutilations And wonder at my fascinations The smiles on their faces make me cry Because I wish I could feel ecstasy You wave and I say “HI” Feeling my pain’s invisibility Tell me why your such an ass And why my hate never seems to pass Whenever I see you are near Is it your joy I fear? I want to tell you all my secrets That everyone thinks they know I want to see how your hand fits Inside mine, but your face says no I’m just a parasite I always start the fight I live surrounded in hate Your love is my bait My heart has been broken Because I let myself fall I want to put it together again But my dread makes me stall Fuck you For making me feel this way Fuck you I don't want to feel this way Fuck you For making my heart play Fuck you I don't want to feel this way Fuck you For making me breathe again Fuck you For making me love again
Reason for writing:
I got my heart broken when I first fell in love and promised myself not to make myself that weak ever again but I am afraid I am falling for someone else and I don't want to get hurt again
Birth sign: Gemini
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