blood on my own hands(or the death of rats)

by antwan fields - Aries

i stumbled home weeping
cane in hand 
my mouth gone dry
my brain turned to sand 
i had beaten the rats 
and it made me feel good
till i rememebered 
i wasn't a hood 
couldn't i have left them alive 
asked my sister
no, they were in the path of a twister
and i felt big and strong 
at nine years old
till i thought about what i had done
felt like something less then mold 
i had destroyed something that wasn't mine to kill
and what was bad about that 
was me pretending to be a killer
i had just killed a pair of rats 
and i ran home
avoiding everyone's gaze 
stumbling, crying 
straight to the pad in a daze
and what i couldnt believe 
was that i was right 
i had killed that which couldn't kill me 
in the dead of night 
and i couldn't think which was worse 
my brain in the sands
or that for the first time i had 
blood om my own hands

Reason for writing:

    i killed a pair of rats with a cane when i was nine    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-10-03 14:16:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:50
Poem ID: 57812

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