I*N*S*E*C*U*R*I*T*Y

by Antwan Fields - Aries

not as good looking as Denzel
she said i was ugly 
but then after telling her off, i thought
well, that's just juggly
not as rich as Gates
not a dime to my name
should have played football
not enough to block the frame
not as good as Bonds
cant swing a 70-ounce bat 
this might be tough except
nobody can swing that!
and all my lovers eventually leave
for reasons unknown
my jealousy drove them away 
and it has now grown
my fear of flying makes me a bitch
why don't i just let go
not beautiful, not rich, not smooth
why not just end the show
find a bottle of pills and swallow them all
never live again
but i remember the days
the days of when
that id like to forget 
days of lots of fights
days of pretending to like girls
days of sleepless nights
and it will dominate me 
answered by my chatterbox
im not good enough
To catch chicken pox
should i die and come back
take that chance
risk it all
like mr.vance
but something back then cost me
all of my purity
what was this evil substance??
I*N*S*E*C*U*R*I*T*Y

Reason for writing:

    TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE LIKE ME
AND WE ALL CONSIDER SUICIDE
OR, OTHER STUPID CHOICES
EVEN THE MOST POPULAR PEOPLE WANT TO END IT ALL    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-10-07 16:33:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:51
Poem ID: 57892

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