When I look at you I see what we could of had I'm missing out on so much cuddling kissing holding your hand, but when I'm near you thinking of you I still feel so sad. I could never say I'm sorry enough times to you I'm sorry I hurt you I'm sorry I lost you I let you down but when I look at myself I see that your still with me in everything I do. I remember walking in the bitter cold to see you at work trudged through the deepest snow just to see you and I remember that day and the sparks that flew the second I laid my eyes on you the first time I kissed you. Whereever you've gone it doesn't seem fair and whereever you go the memory is still there. I don't see you anymore as much as I'd like to and I know it's hard it's hard for me too. But I wish I could see you and we could be together as friends I admit it hurts me so much just as it hurts you and there's things you can't forget but it's just as hard on me as it is on you. Oh, the way you made me feel no one could ever come close and I know now that someone you lose is the one you miss the most. But I'm so happy so content and glad that I still have you in my life yet I feel the passing of the days the nights when I'm alone in my room listening to the songs that remind me so much of you. But whereever you've gone I wish I was there whereever you go I hope you still know that I care. What will I do when you forget about me and those feeling you had are through but I want you to know I can't stop holding on to you. I wish I could have spent time in New York with you or gone skiing or gotten more close to you maybe then I could of realized that I missed out on so much when I lost you. But finally my dream came true one last time I got to see you and tonight we were together for the first time in so long but every inch between us seemed so far, like miles apart. That day will never disappear your eyes drew me closer and with every breath I felt so close sometimes even so near. But whereever you've gone I hope I'm there whereever I go I always feel you near. If you don't wanna see me again I will understand but we were both stars in each others hearts and as the days grow farther the night becomes clearer and the tears I cry come closer to losing you forever my own worst nightmare. If you look in my heart you will see that your still there and I'm still feeling you even though we might be through. Erin, wherever you go I hope you still carry a piece of me with you cause I know you'll always have a piece of my heart I'll never forget you. I'll always be here for you I'll never forget you and God knows when he looked in my eyes that now since I've lost you I finally realized how much I really loved you...
Reason for writing:
This is for the first girl i can honestly say I loved. But I took her for granted and fucked up. She was my world and my everything, but for one fuckin night, i had to become someone Im not and I lost her. I miss her so much, and think about her everyday. I saw her recently for the first time in so long, and it brought back so many feelings, and some tears. So this poem is about her. So hun, if you read this I'm glad we're still friends, I thank God for that, and you still hold on to such a large part of my heart. You made me happy for the first time in my life..and I thank you for that.
Birth sign: Aries
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