*sigh* I wanna cry oh, I hafta lie And i'm gonna die I don't know What to do Should I laugh? Should I cry? Should I say, what i feel inside? Should I face the truth? Or live the dream? Should I smile? Or should I scream? I don't need life any longer Everyday my hate gets stronger So much pain, deep inside I have no one to confide My life means nothing now So I'll just go All is still Time moves slow So now to none I say good bye Perhaps no one will even cry Will they even know I'm gone? I've already been gone for so long Will they mourn my passing to the next time? They all believe I've done some crime But who is really the wrong one here? To make a person live in fear Fear to live with all the sorrow Fear to live to see tomorrow All the pain that others cause How I wish that I could just hit pause And change it all with just one swipe To rid my life of all the strife I can never say what I feel It's almost like there is a seal Covering my mouth to hide it all No one's able to hear my call I scream for help, but no one hears So I just hide my fears Sometimes they listen and just sit there But does anyone really care? My pain, my anger, my rage All locked up inside a cage It sits in there as life gets harder Then, as if to sign an unseen charter It all comes out in one big load I just explode And now nothing is real Just this pain I feel So now, with this knife I take my life I take ten pills and slice my wrists I curl up and ball my fists As I lay here and die All I can do is cry As I bleed, the rage seeps out No energy to even shout With my few last breaths I say As I bleed and die where I lay "All I hate, herald what I said Because of you, I am dead."
Reason for writing:
I wrote this poem because my life is not the greatest in the world. In fact, it' down right sucks. I am really depressed at this point in my life because of many things that are going on. While I was writing a letter to one of my friends today this came to me.
Feel free to email me with any comments. Later!
Birth sign: Aries
You need to log in to edit this poem if it is yours.
View more poems by Alita Chamberlain.