i did disappear

by antwan fields - Aries

at the graduation
with that girl shaking her ass on me
and my boys screaming, "youre afraidyoure afraid",
i did disappear 
and when some one better came into the picture 
and you wanted to be with that someone 
and all that i ever stood for i put down the drain for you
i did disapper
my morality, my self-respect, everything that was drilled into me for sixteen years 
that i followed to the letter never disobeyed 
never felt wrong for obeying
all down the drain 
it wasn't my plan 
but out came the flan 
try i did to control what i was 
and when i did, i felt great
but could it be fate
that has me here at the crossroads
standing here 
being caressed over and over again
that old antwan fields?
who used to say that his love would only be for a woman?
 he disappeared
and i dont miss him
nor do i miss his life 
but you know what 
im still antwan fields
i did disappear
and i still dont know where i am
or who i am
and it makes no sense
what i used to be
and no idea what i am now
i graduated from school
doesn't make me a philosopher
but it sure made me feel bad 
no one is watching my back
anymore
and if my enemies catch sight of me
i will disappear
forever.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-10-19 13:39:18
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:54
Poem ID: 58038

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