Angel of Disgrace

by carriemae - Taurus

Angel of Disgrace

I wish my eyes were shut
Then I'd have no fears
Go through life
With no hate or tears.
Or if I were numb
I'd feel no pain
Never drowning in shadows
Or soaking in shame.
Maybe an angel
Feeling good so much
Then I wouldn't be scared
Of loves sweet touch.
Kissing me softly
With on deep breath
Sweeping me into
Eternity with the rest.
I wish I wasn't
Always so alone
Everybody's something
I just want to go home.
Nobody to talk to 
They're all cloned and fake
And then there's me
Easy to break.
They think I stand on a pedestal
Perfect picture in a frame
There's more to it
Underneath the mask there's shame.
Horrible things
Said and done
But nobody will listen
To them it's fun.
I hold on to my anger
Locked in a box
Chains all around it
Attached are locks.
I wish there was a key
To let it all out
But instead it builds up
Exploding without a doubt.
Sometimes I want to scream
So long that life escapes
Then I'd shut my eyes
I'd be the angel of disgrace.

Reason for writing:

    I felt like a nobody, I felt like nobody needed me.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2000-11-01 11:31:29
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:42:57
Poem ID: 58239

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