must it always be?

by Antwan Fields - Aries

tonight was our night and it was our game
pick the ball up and run
and circumstances get in the way
over and over again
i was supposed to meet someone today
but laughing at me was fate
sometimes i hate being young
and other times i dont
i was going to his house 
fate intervened
again comes daylight
and i am tired of being so cautious
what if he was insane?
see there i go with the what ifs
would i have spent the night with him?
or would i have run home
screaming like the sissy that they say i am?
and i asked as i sat there 
watching tv and wondering  
if i was going to be busy
later on that day
but again fate laughed in my face and i thought
isn't there mercy on me?
somewhere?
must it always be?
that the one who gets no love is
me?????????

Reason for writing:

    i met someone in a chat room yesterday who lives in my city
he is gay also, and i wanted to meet him.
but fate intervened (as in no bus fare) and he's thinking i just didn't want to come...
    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-11-09 20:49:17
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:00
Poem ID: 58361

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