continually lost love

by Antwan Fields - Aries

my first love was a girl
my last a boy 
do i really, really, have to go on?
it hurts
knowing that it is my fault that i lost your love 
and yours
and yours 
and yours
and yours
and yours
and the cycle flows until im out again
it is destined
that love is mine to lose
i know that now
when i loved tiffany i used to be with her all the time
when i loved inishka i was with her when i got out of school
(i was EIGHT!!)
when i loved marilyn i hung with her till she told me to go to hell
when i loved shakisha i was her equal
shakia was just a whore who didn't love anybody
the list goes on on on and there are no end
when i loved my ex he ran away
jesse had someone already
danny...???
and jimmy was in drag
and carlos hated me
and terry couldn't take me home
and patrick..it was just too soon!
so comes the dawn of
another long day
ill live to see another anyway
hopefully
as love slides away
like a reptile
and my hand stretches out to grab it and pull it back
and no surprise;
i miss.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-11-13 16:42:20
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:01
Poem ID: 58426

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