please, don't stop me from doing what i have to do

by Antwan Fields - Aries

suppose i committed suicide? 
somwhere you couldn't find me 
suppose i couldn't be stopped
suppose you bother to look?
for my corpse 
mine has stopped 
i am ready to leave this life 
i think i am
i will not suffer the agony 
i must do this 
as the fear builds up i begin to act crazily 
the fear is inside 
it will not go away
i cause my damage, my pain, my rage
till im locked im my fear like an animal in a cage
im fearful ill go, as i say im not 
i refuse to be brought down by the cleveland browns
my fear increases until, yielding to my fear 
i begin cutting away all that was me, from ear to ear
please don't stop me from doing what i have to do
i regret nothing i did , and neither should you
i jump toward the waves, i hit and disappear 
until, there is nothing left of me but my earthly fear
the face of my anger that got me here
laughes in mine as i release my fear
remember i loved danny till i hurt and it sears
and crying before i did it and more salty tears
i wonder before i go, was i going to be a father? ever?
or was this my fate, and that option was never?
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-11-14 13:50:43
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:01
Poem ID: 58443

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