I CAN'T CRY WHEN I THINK OF YOU ANYMORE

by ALICIA - Cancer

I CAN NOT CRY WHEN I THINK OF YOU ANYMORE,
ALL MY TEARS RAN DRY,
I ALWAYS HID MY GROWING FEAR LONG AGO,
MY FEAR THAT YOU MIGHT DIE,
YOU ALWAYS MADE JOKES,
WARNING YOUR OWN DEMISE,
IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO HEAR,
I TOOK EVERY JOKE WITH A GRAIN OF SALT,
I KNOW YOU WERE IN PAIN,
I CRIED IN HIDING IN A CORNER ALL ALONE,
I TRIED NOT TO WATCH IT HAPPEN SLOWLY,
BUT YOU WERE SLIPPING AWAY,
I NEVER WANTED YOU TO SEE ME UNHAPPY,
CRYING IN PAIN,
YOU WERE SO STRONG I WANTED TO BE THE SAME,
YOU LAID DOWN AND SAID GOODBYE,
I CAN’T CRY ANYMORE,
NOW NOTHING SEEMS TO SHOCK ME,
THE GRIEVING PROCESS HAS BEEN MORE THEN A OCCATIONAL OCCURRENCE,
BUT A LIFESTYLE,
NOW IM USED TO SAYING GOODBYE,
IM LEARNING TO LIVE WITHOUT,
YOU CAN BE STRONG AS A PERSON,
BUT YOU STILL MISS THE WAY THINGS WERE,
IM STRONGER,
I MISS YOU,
I CAN NOT CRY WHEN I THINK OF YOU ANYMORE,
ALL MY TEARS RAN DRY,

Reason for writing:

    MY MOM AND FOUR OTHER IMPORTANT PEOPLE PASSED AWAY WITHIN 2 YRS.  IT HAS SHAPED WHO I AM AND I MISS THEM.  BUT WHEN IT HAPPENS SO OFTEN SOMETIMES IT CAN BE HARD TO GRIEVE.  THIS CAN BE DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH.  IM MISS THEM SO MUCH THAT I WANT OTHERS TO KNOW THEY ARE NOT THE ONLY ONES GOING THROUGH THIS.  I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW BECAUSE NO ONE TOLD ME.  I THOUGHT I WAS ALL ALONE.  BUT NOW I DEAL WITH IT AND I AM TRYING TO HELP OTHERS.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-11-17 19:50:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:02
Poem ID: 58479

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