doomed to be alone

by Antwan Fields - Aries

i sip my water slowly, as i do a lot of things
i read the paper and listen to the radio
poisoned by a so-called love life, i am doing all of this as i do most things-alone
no one walks over to my chair and kisses me good morning
tells me ill see you later as we leave for the morning 
nobody home to welcome me, it hurts, its painful
but rain falling toward me in twilight, why only me?!
and i get up silently with a feeling of heavy silence 
the anger is nonexistant, the fury somewhere else
and all i feel is sadness, i am alone 
i laugh with my friends, joke with my teachers
but there is definitly a feeling of emptiness inside
sometimes i wish i was someone else, different family, different time
and when im on the phone with a friend i try not to whine
even if i tried, i would fail
because i feel, yes i feel, that heaven's not so far away
and i wander through the streets asking where is my lover??
but i am wrong yet again, and i just sit down 
im too tired for this, but something drives me on 
don't know what it is, but it causes me pain
much uneeded. and still unheeded 
and to finish me off, comes insults from the south
my world crumbles as does my vision of a happy home
where there would not be another but just each other
and hey! im doomed to be alone
but i will proceed, i will burn as i walk in the desert sun, and only then will i fade away into nothingness
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-11-24 14:54:25
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:04
Poem ID: 58607

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