i sip my water slowly, as i do a lot of things i read the paper and listen to the radio poisoned by a so-called love life, i am doing all of this as i do most things-alone no one walks over to my chair and kisses me good morning tells me ill see you later as we leave for the morning nobody home to welcome me, it hurts, its painful but rain falling toward me in twilight, why only me?! and i get up silently with a feeling of heavy silence the anger is nonexistant, the fury somewhere else and all i feel is sadness, i am alone i laugh with my friends, joke with my teachers but there is definitly a feeling of emptiness inside sometimes i wish i was someone else, different family, different time and when im on the phone with a friend i try not to whine even if i tried, i would fail because i feel, yes i feel, that heaven's not so far away and i wander through the streets asking where is my lover?? but i am wrong yet again, and i just sit down im too tired for this, but something drives me on don't know what it is, but it causes me pain much uneeded. and still unheeded and to finish me off, comes insults from the south my world crumbles as does my vision of a happy home where there would not be another but just each other and hey! im doomed to be alone but i will proceed, i will burn as i walk in the desert sun, and only then will i fade away into nothingnessBirth sign: Aries
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