We came into this life as strangers, Only destine for our souls to one day meet, As the season was beginning to cool, And all nature around was going to sleep, Our hearts were bursting open with energy, Far more deeper than other’s could take in, Although both of us knew we were safe, Opening up more and more, Each second of the day, Exploring mentally and emotionally, All the routes in each other’s soul, No worry was in sight, As we completely let god, Guide us with all his might, But we were cheated by time, To have found this great bond, That some people never seem to find, Way too early in life, Only sixteen years of age, No one understanding what we both, Extremely felt, Reading into each other, With just a glance, We could warm each other’s soul, Nine intense months passed, And a wrong decision was made, For him to go his own way, Since we were so young, And time wasn’t playing on our side, Little did we know? Our lives would never be the same, Never joined again, To have that joyous reign, The world was against our love, From then on, All the odds were against us, And never played on our part, Seven years passed by, Both our lives were separated, Although, not a day was present, Without a thought of the love we shared, To know inside, That the love we grew to know, Although to never again show, Would forever grow. Early one fall morning, The call was made, That chilled my entire soul, Of your death the night before, I can still feel the pain, Running throughout my whole body, Paralyzing each and every limb, With out the truth, Ever really sinking in, The services came and went, While I purposely stayed out of sight, Trying to deal with the whole, Situation entire, Days and months passed, And parental contact was made, Again opening that life, That was once real, Some life time ago, Gaining strength and wisdom, As the grieving process took place, To again have a phone call, That your head stone was down, With your name and date engraved, But I still stayed away, With the pleasant feeling, A phone call could still be made, To hear your voice, Then the time came, For me to place a visit, To your resting place, A friend drove me the whole way, Each limb beginning to once again, Fill with fear, I made my way, To the dirt and grassy area, Reading the stone below, That now in front of me, Revealed to show, Your name across the bottom, Tears came easily, As my body began to shake, Although for some reason, I didn’t feel alone, Standing there and looking down Feeling as though you were looking, From above, And finalizing finding the courage, To tell you good bye, I do want you to know, All the other loves, Will always be, Compared to the intensity, To what we had found, Back when were way too young, And when only M&M understood, The love we shared together, Which would some how, Live on forever. Amanda Pinkard June 16, 2000 (M&M)
Reason for writing:
The Death of my rare first love.
Birth sign: Aquarius
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