i fucked up

by Antwan Fields - Aries

a wise man once said look your lover in the eye when talking
or he will believe you are keeping something from him
theres my mistake
except he wasn't my lover 
he wasn't interested
i try not to feel the pain, but it sears and i almost scream
but ignorance comes into my being and i wrestle with an unknown entityt that screams into my face "YOU FUCKED UP!"
and it laughes at me and i can't move 
it laughes again as i try to raise my arms, and it laughes 
ghoulishly as i fight to move away
the damage done to my confidence was monumental at least 
i'm screaming, i'm screaming im screaming but its not working and the creature releases me and then punches me in the stomach. i read his card as he tosses it at me and it reads; chatterbox: self-esteem and confidence destroyer
and i try to get up and it hits me and as im on my knees he kneels in front of me and says, "repeat after me. i fucked up" \
i spit blood, look up at him with fury in my eyes and i try to say FUCK YOU but the words won't come out but what does 
come out is danny's name and the words:
I
FUCKED
IT
ALL
UP

Reason for writing:

    GUESS

    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-12-04 15:15:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:07
Poem ID: 58792

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