I WANT TO DIE`

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

God please help me through this time
I need you here
Need you here beside me
He told me we’d just hook up
Instead he took it further
I screamed no
He continued on
Now I’m sitting here
Writing this
It’s the second time this month
Only this time, I didn’t want it at all
And I’m wondering how
I ever got into this position
I can’t tell anyone
I can’t no matter what
For if they knew
My parents would press charges
Against the guy in my classes
The whole school would know
I’d be in the middle of chaos
In my life
Everything would tear apart
What if I’m pregnant?
What would I do?
If I don’t end up pregnant, it would be easier to hide
No one will find out
But my mind will go crazy
I can’t get my mind off it
I just have to keep smiling
Faking it to everything
Keep pretending that everything is all right
That everything is normal
But it isn’t
I have to keep talking to him
So that no one suspects anything
I don’t know what to do
Things are just a blur
All I can see is him
And me
And…
The rest of my life
In pieces
I don’t want to go on
There’s no use
Too much has changed
I want to die.

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-04 15:35:53
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:07
Poem ID: 58793

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