UNTITLED (JASON)

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

My life has changed since childhood
I don’t remember who I was
But in an instant I grew up
Faster than everyone else
Now I’m standing here
18 and already I’ve seen enough hatred in the world
Enough abuse and torture
But without the lessons
I wouldn’t have turned out to be who I am today
Strong
Independent
Ready to be seen

I just wish things had turned out better
That now I wouldn’t be living in fear
But I am
I’m too scared to go to school tomorrow
Look him in the eye
And act normal
As if nothing happened
He raped me
What is normal about that?
I wish I could disappear
But again, I can’t

I’m that ‘Tough Girl Sam’ that everyone talks about
Who smiles no matter what
I know what people will do tomorrow
What they do every day
They smile at me
Tell me I’m such a sweetheart
Such a good friend
So perfect
Perfect body
Hair
Personality
I wish they’d stop saying that

Cause I never was, never will be
Specially not now
My innocence has been taken from me
There’s nothing else left
But this broken heart
Empty tears
Lonely person
Trying to reach out for someone 
But all she gets back is abuse

But I’m glad that you’re willing
To listen
Like no one else has ever tried
So that I can tell you what’s going on
Inside. 
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-04 17:08:32
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:08
Poem ID: 58798

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