im still afraid to tell my father

by Antwan Fields - Aries

i wan't to come out to my father 
but im too scared to
he's a big man tougher than ill ever be
no matter how hard i try
i become lost in the fog, im afraid to explain
because im afraid of losing him
i want him behind me, how can i tell him this??
no matter what, i think he loves me
even as i meet coldness from my former friends i think he's 
there for me 
after the fact 
do i want him to find out im gay?
maybe not
as i rot
and i feel the fear beckoning and i jump away in fright 
im too scared
my father is a man 
and so am i 
but even as i write him i keep the secret 
thst is making my family say no! 
don't tell him
but i must
musn't i???

Reason for writing:

    my father is incarcerated at this time. he has been in jail 
since i was nine.
    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2000-12-06 12:39:37
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:08
Poem ID: 58836

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