Dead Self

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

There she stands
The messed up image of what she thought she’d never be
She has grown up since childhood
The proud image of a screwed up family
She fought when others would call her mom a whore
She fought when someone brought up her fathers alcoholism
She fought when her brother would rape her

Now she sits on a park bench in NYC
Stains of her tears imprinted on her cheeks like a painting
Watching every hyperactive child and drawn out parent walk by

She lives here
Here on this park bench
Newspapers as her only warmth
The frozen raindrops of the winter as her only friend

At night, she sells off her body
To the middle-aged stockbrokers who aren’t getting enough at home from their wives
Who feel her body with dirty, lying fingers
Put their cheating tongues into her mouth, licking between her thighs
Eating out all her purity
She lays there motionless, night after night, letting them have their way
Grabbing and sucking on their cocks to get the money for a better life
  
After they’re done, the men go back to their screwed up fake lives
Leaving her alone once again
A gun in her hand
A broken face of forgotten youth
She lifts it up into her mouth
Pulls the trigger. 

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-09 13:31:08
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:09
Poem ID: 58885

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