My Emotions

by Sha-una - Sagittarius

Late at night 
while you all sleep
I am up and awake
Trying to hide the sound of my weep
So much goes through my head
As I sit on my bed all alone
The way you treat and talk to me
The way you don't want me to be grown
You used to always say
I was your special baby
but as the years have gone by
I noticed it's just one of the many lies you've told me
I will always remember
The fact that you weren't there for me
I had to raise myself
And I am proud of what I've come to be
Some of the things you say to me
Are things I never thought I'd hear
They are things I've come to expect
But they are things I'll always fear
I am really sick of this
You are so unfair to me
I know you like Amanda more
But I'm a better person can't you see?
I always had this thought
That you were the best
But after how you've been to me
I realize you're no better than the rest
You've put me in a bad position
I hate where I am right now
You seem to like it
I want to get away from you and don't know how
I look at you
You seem not to care
How can you not notice
How can your heart be so bare?
Do you not understand
How much I've been through?
I want to move on and get over it
But it's like I can't because of you
There are days when I awake
I just don't want to see the light of day
I don't want to go through the pain
That you inflict in every way
I have never felt this before
I feel really mean
But you brought this on yourself
And you deserve what I've seen
I honestly never thought
I could feel this way
I also truly thought
These are things I'd never say
You are my Dad
That you'll always be
But to have you in my future
That's not what I foresee
These are my emotions
Put on show for you
I know you won't believe them
So I'm saying trust me, they are true.

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this poem to tell my father how he makes me feel. Poems are my one and only way of letting out my anger. Some people dance, sing, and play sports to relieve stress, I write poems.    

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2000-12-10 14:45:10
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:09
Poem ID: 58905

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