why bother to try

by lauren - Cancer

for whatever reason
a conversation so dry 
hoping to find interest
why bother to try
i've dealt my own hand
just like the rest
i'm not looking to win
i was trying to confess
in extreme complication
when it shouldn't have to be
learning to let it go
all so desperatley
a fire so deep
with vanishment awaiting
exhaustingly exposed
feeling so degrating
not to be prestigous
but trying to understand
deeply gasping for breath
when there's blood on my hands
a dance with the devil
inspiration so discreet
trustingly distraght
a misguinding belief.

Reason for writing:

    i always want what i know is not good for me.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2000-12-11 13:25:08
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:10
Poem ID: 58929

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