to all....

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

to all those that i've held dear
i've lied to you
i've lived in fear

to all those who said they cared
i thank you but
share my thoughts with you? i didn't dare

to all those who have said how much i've meant to them
i've lived the best i could
i tried to be who you wanted, i wanted to be your gem

to all those who tried to make me see
how much impact i've made, how much good advice i gave
i hope you see who i will never ever be

i lied and said i was happy
when in reality, i would cry myself to sleep
please, now i can't get too sappy

i lied and smiled my way through the tears
i was the regular, normal teenage girl on the outside
but inside, everything showed, every single one of my fears

i lied and hid away the hurt
showed i was proud, satisfied, and undefeated
i gossiped, i goofed around, i could even flirt

i lied and made myself dependent
to hide away the depression feeding on my brain
if i knew what would happen, i would have stayed independent

i wish i could be there for your graduation
you'll look so great guys
be sure to give my family an invitation

i wish i could be there when you get your license
don't stress out to much
don't hit any cones if that makes sense

i wish i could be there for your wedding
when you find your perfect spouse
just make sure someones there to calm your fretting

i wish i could hold you
on my funeral day
and tell you, i'll always love you
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2000-12-12 20:57:55
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:43:10
Poem ID: 58954

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